you amaze me

So I never still have shown you this.

The link sits on the back of that heart on your wall but you’ve forgot and I’m kind of glad. I’ll show you this Friday which is our wonderful 6 month anniversary! I can’t believe we got here without me chasin you away. Not going to make this long because I’ll do that all later. 

I’m just missing you a little bit right now :/ 

I caved.

I wasn’t going to show you this for awhile, but i dont know I feel like you needed to be reminded that I care so much about you. It’s not even that crazy, I almost feel stupid for it but I know you’re gonna be smiling at some of the stuff. Though I kinda already showed you some of it! :( See, you tell me whats wrong and I go into action mode! Pulling out all the stops because I never ever ever never ever want you to leave, that is my worst fear. Not spiders, nor manholes but losing you from my life. And I know that’s how it would be, not just casual friends and that would kill me.Not that you dictate my happiness but you breathing, alive and by my side is what makes me happy. You are what I’m working towards, to build a wonderful life with you, I couldn’t find a better person to do it with Jacob.

These months with you have been amazing, spectacular filled with a lot of laughing and smoking and cuddles and I wouldn’t change a second about any of it. Even my mom walking in on us…(i’m almost over it I swear) But everything from our walks to our wrestles I have been in love and every day it grows and grows. I might explode from it as time goes on with my little body and such an enormous ammount of feelings! 

sdghsroelkdsgd. I don’t want to seem overbearing, or like i’m doing this for you sake. This is my sake, you seeing all of this will make me feel better now that you know what I’ve been up too :) I told you I had a surprise for you a few months ago, and this was it. Not that cool, I told you but I’m thinking you already enjoy it.

I LOVE YOU, it’s as simple as that Jacob.